You are clear, structured and focused, but you rely on boundaries, facts and logic to feel safe. If something disrupts your structure (like emotions), you are afraid to get lost.

Especially when it comes to emotions this tight grip turns into overthinking or analyzing — intellectualizing feelings instead of feeling them. There is this false sense of emotional stability when in reality you do not allow yourself to experience the full spectrum of your emotions. You rather distract yourself or keep emotions to yourself than to let other people (and even yourself!) see you vulnerably. But that also means, that you keep your close ones at a distance.

You have a great vision but right now you do not feel truly fulfilled in every moment by it. You hope that it will come, once you reach the top. Unfortunately that way with every step, the pressure to succeed builds.

Even though you are more in your masculine energy, you have picked up along the way that it is not really a reliable container for your feminine energy and now struggle to express both feminine and masculine energy in a balanced way.

This type of expression often leads to people switching in extreme ways in between the two polarities or splitting them up into separate ways of being. Please also read a dominant expression of feminine energy to get the full picture of what your expression of both is like.

If you integrate your feminine energy further and loosen your grip, you would realize that you can not get lost in your emotions and build true stability within yourself through self-trust and your inner guidance. You would release some pressure and be able to enjoy the journey towards your success.